So it was my sophomore year in high school and I was telling a classmate that I would not spend the rest of my life in a small town. It was just not for me. I remember this day because it ended up being a half day because the power went out at school and I was ready to go. I told them that I couldn’t wait to move to Atlanta first chance I got. I had spent weeks during the summer at my aunts house with my brothers and cousins in Atlanta and I just knew one day I would be there on my own in the “Big City”. Don’t get me wrong I love my little home town but I was not made for the small town life I wanted no parts of it for the rest of my life. I learned a lot there. All of my morals and foundation started there and has kept me grounded while living in the “Big City”. Truth is I had no real plan when I moved here and some days I still feel like I am flying by the seat of my pants as the older generation would say but I’m 16 years in and I’m still moving along. I’m sure by now you are saying “Zony, where are you going with this post?” Well let me tell you back in November of 2019 I was in church and I hear from God but sometimes I often wonder if it is Him but on this day I had no doubt that it was Him. I clearly heard Him say “Move”. I instantly caught an attitude because I thought that God was telling me to move back to South Carolina and I was like ohhhhh nooooooo please don’t let that be the directive but He cleared it up and was like “Start making moves”. For those that don’t know I am a huge procrastinator and I will wait to do something until the last minute or just not do it at all. When He told me to start making moves I was like okay what do I really need to get done because there is so much that I want to do but what do I need to do during this season.
Now it is November when I get this message and in that time I was trying to prepare for 2020 but I was drawing a blank with any goals for 2020 and I couldn’t figure out why. But I was writing in my journal one day and I literally never really know what I am going to write about from day to day but I always write at the top of the paper “Holy Spirit please guide my thoughts and my pen.” He definitely guides my pen so one day He reminded me that there were still a lot of goals on my 2018 and 2019 vision boards that I needed to revisit and accomplish. So that is what I did I revisited the boards and just tried to figure out where to start. Little did I know or really anyone that 2020 would be the year of completely different. Nothing normal about this year. It has pushed everyone I know including myself out of their comfort zones. Now I don’t really like being pushed out of my comfort zone but at this point I just do what I have to do.
As I was looking over the past two years goals I realized that a lot of them didn’t get accomplished because of fear and it was just that simple. I was scared to do it because of so many reasons. But this year I have been getting somethings going. So you know that I have been wanting to buy a home for the longest time and I know that has been on my vision board for at least 6 years but I would always take a couple of steps toward it and then freeze up at the responsibility of it all. But this year I have been diligent in making this goal come together for me. I have been consistent in taking the necessary steps to be a homeowner prayerfully by the end of 2020. It is slow but I believe that it will be worth it and I can’t wait to just be in my very own home and design and decorate it and just be comfortable in my own space. It’s coming… ya’ll keep me in your prayers.
Another goal that I have really been putting off because I was traumatized by my previous experience is going back to school to get my Master’s degree. I had the worst experience with the school that I graduated from with my Bachelor’s Degree. I was like that has got to be it with school. But I finally went to an information session before the pandemic hit and got the steps that I need to take and I got an idea of what they are looking for. So you guys let me tell you I dread taking standardize tests they are literally the death of me. I never do well so I prayed and asked God to help me get the GMAT or GRE waived so that I won’t have to take it to get in the program that I want to get in. When the pandemic hit the test was waived because you have to take it in person and with Covid-19 lurking around we couldn’t do that. So the first deadline was August 31st and I punked out and didn’t apply. So I was feeling pretty bad about not pushing the button and I was beating myself up really bad. I finally apologized to God for wasting a prayer and I apologized to myself for doubting myself yet again. I finally pulled the trigger on September 30th and they are still waiving the GMAT and GRE testing … Thank you Jesus!!!! Then the waiting started and the second guessing. But I am going to take it easy and just wait for any correspondence regarding my application.
Ya’ll I have been blogging for about 6 years off and on and I have been seriously building my life coaching business for about 4 years and I have had a lot of pro bono clients and I was like God help me attract paying clients. So in 2018 I said no more free clients. I was adamant about my business being a legit business and being taken serious for the work that I have put into this. So finally in 2020 I have my first paying client and it has been an amazing experience. The excitement that I had when I woke up one morning with the notification of a booked client and they paid in full. I smiled ALL day. I was like thank you God for showing me that it is possible and I just have to keep building and they will come. So I’m not giving up on the business it is going to keep growing with the help and guidance of God.
I will say with all of the uncertainty of this year I am proud of the time that I have had to put into my life. There are definitely some other goals in the work but I will of course give you those in another post because ya’ll those goals have almost pushed me to my breaking point. So they deserve their own post. So we are in the 4th quarter of this 2020 and I want to encourage you all to not give up just yet. You still have time to make something positive happen and reach goals that you want to accomplish. Don’t waste another day being scared, being doubtful, questioning yourself just get to it. What’s the worst that could happen? Answer that question but still go for the goal.
What goal are you still looking to accomplish before this year is over? Take the steps to make it happen. The things of this year don’t have to stop you. Be confident in yourself and push past anything that may try to stop you. If you need any help please feel free to reach out to me. Don’t forget I have a Goal Setter program that you can purchase and we will work together to get you on the right track. 4th Quarter 2020 LET’S GO!!!!!!!
Talk to you all soon,